I just THOUGHT I was tested the other day when I wanted to use food to numb my negative emotions. But this will be the REAL test.
I was laid off from my job today. I didn't see it coming. I thought it was maybe a possibility further down the road---a few months maybe if things didn't change, but I never thought it would happen this soon.
You know what I want to do? Stuff my face. And not with carrot sticks and broccoli. I want ice cream, brownies, cookies, mexican food---the greasier and higher calorie, the better.
Would that make me feel better? As a matter of fact, I think it would. And it's a good thing I didn't have any of that in my house, because I would have already demolished it.
So I'm very cognizant of the fact I want food to make me feel better, which is NOT its intended purpose. Nor is it healthy for me to use food in that way.
I'll try to refrain the best I can, as I go through this difficult time.
P.S. Anyone know of a job opening?
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This is one thing I learned from quitting smoking.
ReplyDeleteEverything you believed about smoking is a lie.
This includes the belief: "Would that make me feel better?"
You believe it would. But, it won't. The feelings will be there - and some worse ones - right after you smoke the cigarette or eat the food.
Oh, and it might kill you and its ruining your quality of life.
Once you believe that - that it won't make you feel better - it's easier to quit. Still totally sucks.