I've decided to take more drastic measures in my health and fitness journey. Trying to take "small steps" and focus on overall health and going easy on myself is not working. I think I'm so strong. I think I can do everything by myself. The reality is, I'm not. I'm not strong when it comes to weight loss. I'm very, very weak.
I have a drastic amount of weight to lose. So I need to do something drastic to get it off.
I'm not at the surgery point yet---but the main reason I haven't seriously considered that is that I don't have health insurance that covers it or the money to have it done. But I do want to try every option before I work to make surgery doable.
So I'm researching ways to get this weight off using prepackaged meals and counseling/coaching, such as NutriSystem, Medifast, Jenny Craig or one of those kinds of programs.
I am realizing I can't do this alone. I'm so far gone, I need professional help to get out of it. I can't get control of this myself for whatever reason. So I need to figure out how to come up with the resources to get professional and medical help.
Trying not to let it get me down, but it's tough. I hate being this huge. It effects me every minute of every day. People judge me. I haven't had a date in years. I'm lonely. I can't even walk a block without being winded and needing to sit down.
It's just miserable. I have to take drastic measures to save my life. I have to take drastic measures to fully LIVE my life.
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Thursday, January 7, 2010
Calories in soup
So I just calculated all the calories in the Vegetable Soup I make that I love so much and feels like comfort food, but is actually a pot of vegetables. (See recipe below.) It keeps me full for hours.
The total calorie count in the huge pot is 2,700 calories. The pot is at least 8 huge servings ---probably more like 10-12. So divide 2,700 calories by 8 (the lowest number) and that is 338 calories per serving. For this pot of soup, I will count how many servings we go through, so I'll have a more accurate serving number.
I also did a "fat gram" count and the whole pot of soup has 14 grams of fat. So, assuming 8 servings (when it's probably more like 10-12 servings), that is only 1.75 grams of fat per serving.
The key for me is going to be finding meals like this. This meal:
1. Doesn't feel like diet food at all
2. I love the taste
3. Keeps me full for several hours (why I add the black beans)
4. Very little preparation work needed---I throw a bunch of stuff in a pot one day, refrigerate and then just reheat for several days
5. Low calorie and low fat
6. Very cheap to make
The total calorie count in the huge pot is 2,700 calories. The pot is at least 8 huge servings ---probably more like 10-12. So divide 2,700 calories by 8 (the lowest number) and that is 338 calories per serving. For this pot of soup, I will count how many servings we go through, so I'll have a more accurate serving number.
I also did a "fat gram" count and the whole pot of soup has 14 grams of fat. So, assuming 8 servings (when it's probably more like 10-12 servings), that is only 1.75 grams of fat per serving.
The key for me is going to be finding meals like this. This meal:
1. Doesn't feel like diet food at all
2. I love the taste
3. Keeps me full for several hours (why I add the black beans)
4. Very little preparation work needed---I throw a bunch of stuff in a pot one day, refrigerate and then just reheat for several days
5. Low calorie and low fat
6. Very cheap to make
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
Posting
I don't really have anything new or interesting to say. Just want to be committed to this blog, so I'm trying to post something.
Hmmm...just heard the newscaster in the background say, "Get ready for the coldest winds we've had in a decade!" I knew I should have bought that majorly discounted coat I liked so much at Ross a month ago. But then I thought, "You know, Texas never really has cold enough winters for a coat."
Guess I was wrong.
As far as my weight loss journey goes, I'm making progress. I need to get myself a scale that I have here at home. That's on my list to buy with my next paycheck. A scale and measuring tape.
Last year, I was all about "oh, I just need to focus on making healthier choices and the weight will come off eventually." Uhmmm....no. That is a load of crap. I really did make a lot of progress in creating habits that were more healthy, but the scale did not reflect that.
So this year----it's about the numbers. Get that weight OFF (in a healthy way). If the numbers aren't going down, then I need to work harder and do more. Period. It's about the numbers.
No matter how many fruits, vegetables and water I'm taking in, I will never be healthy until I lose this weight.
Making my favorite huge pot of vegetable soup again now (see post below)! It will last me the rest of the week!
Hmmm...just heard the newscaster in the background say, "Get ready for the coldest winds we've had in a decade!" I knew I should have bought that majorly discounted coat I liked so much at Ross a month ago. But then I thought, "You know, Texas never really has cold enough winters for a coat."
Guess I was wrong.
As far as my weight loss journey goes, I'm making progress. I need to get myself a scale that I have here at home. That's on my list to buy with my next paycheck. A scale and measuring tape.
Last year, I was all about "oh, I just need to focus on making healthier choices and the weight will come off eventually." Uhmmm....no. That is a load of crap. I really did make a lot of progress in creating habits that were more healthy, but the scale did not reflect that.
So this year----it's about the numbers. Get that weight OFF (in a healthy way). If the numbers aren't going down, then I need to work harder and do more. Period. It's about the numbers.
No matter how many fruits, vegetables and water I'm taking in, I will never be healthy until I lose this weight.
Making my favorite huge pot of vegetable soup again now (see post below)! It will last me the rest of the week!
Friday, January 1, 2010
Stop the EXCUSES
Wow...another year. Another decade.
My life is far from perfect, but every other area of my life is on a good course. I'm making progress and growing everyday. Every area---but one.
Again, the area that needs the most work (by far) is my health. I am severely overweight and it will kill me if I don't do something about it now. I am 37 years old and need to lose 140 pounds to be at a healthy weight for me. That is a whole other person.
I've been carrying all this extra weight for 7-8 years now.
What is so frustrating is that I KNOW what to do to get it off. I need to get off my ass and MOVE and I need to eat healthy foods in moderation.
Instead of doing what I need to do, you know what I do? I *talk* about making changes (like I'm doing now--I'm very good at that) and I MAKE EXCUSES.
I am the QUEEN OF EXCUSES.
I can't work out today, I'm too busy. I'll workout tomorrow. It's too early. I'm just too tired. I need to spend time with my son. I'll start Monday. I'll go thru the drive-thru one last time. Just one more bite. My work consumes me. I have no clean workout clothes. None of my workout clothes fit. My workout shoes make my feet hurt. It's raining. It might rain today. It's too hot. It's too cold. I will be embarrassed. My favorite show is on TV. I have too much work to catch up on. Once I get caught up at work, I'll start working out. I don't have time to eat healthy. I hate cooking. Eating healthy is too expensive. I'll make my next meal a healthy one.
The list goes on.
Excuses paralyze me. Excuses keep me locked in this prison.
So my 2010 New Year's Resolution: STOP THE EXCUSES.
My life is far from perfect, but every other area of my life is on a good course. I'm making progress and growing everyday. Every area---but one.
Again, the area that needs the most work (by far) is my health. I am severely overweight and it will kill me if I don't do something about it now. I am 37 years old and need to lose 140 pounds to be at a healthy weight for me. That is a whole other person.
I've been carrying all this extra weight for 7-8 years now.
What is so frustrating is that I KNOW what to do to get it off. I need to get off my ass and MOVE and I need to eat healthy foods in moderation.
Instead of doing what I need to do, you know what I do? I *talk* about making changes (like I'm doing now--I'm very good at that) and I MAKE EXCUSES.
I am the QUEEN OF EXCUSES.
I can't work out today, I'm too busy. I'll workout tomorrow. It's too early. I'm just too tired. I need to spend time with my son. I'll start Monday. I'll go thru the drive-thru one last time. Just one more bite. My work consumes me. I have no clean workout clothes. None of my workout clothes fit. My workout shoes make my feet hurt. It's raining. It might rain today. It's too hot. It's too cold. I will be embarrassed. My favorite show is on TV. I have too much work to catch up on. Once I get caught up at work, I'll start working out. I don't have time to eat healthy. I hate cooking. Eating healthy is too expensive. I'll make my next meal a healthy one.
The list goes on.
Excuses paralyze me. Excuses keep me locked in this prison.
So my 2010 New Year's Resolution: STOP THE EXCUSES.
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